- I have no privacy
- Things don't change
- Always remember to be on your toes
- You MUST have a reason for anything you do. (I.e., Going somewhere, wanting something, doing anything etc.)
- People don't give a care
- Money is all that matters.
I feel like an absolute convenience case, and I hate being isolated, which is what I am again.
This sucks.
Now, for a slightly positive praise:
Thank goodness for slightly more regular sleep and food. I still have trouble sleeping, but I am back to my usual grazing. I eat little bits throughout the day rather than sit down and eat a full meal. Some say its better to eat that way, my mother frowns on it. Oh well.
The bad news is I fear for my weight now more than ever. I think about my weight a lot. Trying to maintain it at a healthy level is a constant worry.
Also on the brightside is that I have a job that is supposed to give me about 40 hours a week now. However, though I was considering getting another job, my mother is really pushing me to get a job for weekends or nights. I was already considering this, but I feel indignant at this coercion. I've never been anything but hardworking and 'picking up a few extra hours' for me will more than likely mean further isolating me from any semblance of a social life. I feel like that my life is meant to be comprised of work and school and that is it. Perhaps so...
Nonetheless, I am going to find my own way, or at least try to. I don't care if i struggle, that's what makes life worth while.
Dear Lord, thank you for the good, the bad and the in-between. Because without it Lord, life would just be so boring.
Cheers mate,
Your Lady in Black
